Sunday, May 28, 2006

me...a prankster??? never!

recently I have been accused of pulling a "prank" if you will. though I'm not sure it's really prank...but whatever. I am the one being accused because in the not so distant past I was the mind behind the overtaking of one myspace page.

I'm not really sure how I feel about this label of being a "prankster." My initial reaction was to not like it. I felt like that meant people looked at me in way that they couldn't trust me and that I was always up to no good. Is this true? Is this how I'm viewed? Surely not...hopefully not. It was brought to my attention that this may not be a bad thing. I could look at it from the angle of it meaning I was quick, smart, cunning, etc. Maybe I should take it as a compliment...not everyone could pull off things I could. But I don't think that's what they meant when they called me a prankster. Maybe I could take it from the view point that I like to play games. I like the thought of a prank war and while I always fear that I will loose miserable maybe I have more wit than I thought, more brains to fuel a good prank...who can know! Who knows if it is good or bad...I think the bottom line is I'd rather be decribed differently.

So...did I pull this last prank? Maybe, maybe not. who can ever know. But I'm not sure my personality deems me to be the first one to blame.

Friday, May 26, 2006

a solid rock

Today I heard my mom tell me with tears in her voice, "Today is not a good day." It is amazing the impact that has on me. Here is this person who has been my rock, my one true parent, my constant encouragement, source of unconditional love dealing with things no one should have to deal with. She's amazing. And I will never be able to thank her enough for all that she has taught me, shown me, given me....I hope to be as strong as her when I grow up. Not so that I'll be able to have a tough face and never let anyone see my heart but so I'll be able to take life with joy, whatever comes my way.

I'm going to go see her, maybe that will cheer her up!!!

Monday, May 22, 2006

must see TV

Yesterday I heard a friend of mine say, "I wish TV shows didn't affect me as much as they do." The more I thought about it, the more I realized that TV shows will always affect us...that's why we watch them, right? If they didn't have an effect on us then we wouldn't be watching them. Whatever the affect is, it is what drives us to watching it every week....or non stop if you buy the DVD's.

I'm not one to be obessed or become addicted with a TV show like others I know (certain teen angst love triangle dramas that are now off the air excluded). I'm not saying it's a bad thing, I'm just saying it's been hard for me to do. I've watched LOST and I enjoy it when I do, but I go weeks without seeing another episode. I am thoroughly entertained by 24 and think it is a great show but I'm good to just catch an episode hear or there. I bought the first season of Arrested Development about 3 months ago because I fell in love with the show but have yet to finish the second disk. I like TV though. I probably watch too much of it, we probably all watch too much of it, but it's fun, right? It allows us to escape reality and hear other say the things we've always wanted to say. To watch people accomplish tasks we will never be able to. To meet a variety of people in various situations.

Good characters...that's what affects us. It's the same with books,'s about the characters. If you don't connect them then you aren't affected and thus you probably won't enjoy it. So if it is all about character development....why am anxiously awaiting May 31st when the new season of celebrity poker showdown starts??? you all figure that one out! All this to say....I don't think we should feel ashamed if TV shows have an effect on us. I would say there is line that one can cross to where it becomes unhealthy if your own demeaner and outlook on life is completely changed after a show. For instance...if you happen to catch an episode of Boy Meets World and it is one where Corey and Tapanga are not together, things are still ok in the world, life will go on, rest assured that they do get married. It's all about perspective I guess. Everything in life will influence us...the good, the bad, the untruth, friends, family, jobs, etc. The scale to which you let the small things in life (tv shows about people who aren't real) affect you is maybe something to consider.